Everything feels like it's getting to be too much for me lately. It'll be my TOM in a week, I'm dying for sugar,I gained back so much weight already it seems like it will never come off again, and I don't know how to deal. I have to take care of my mom and handle everything for her regarding her surgery/health or it won't get done. I have to help my boyfriend with his homework, wake him up every morning, cook and clean up after him and I just feel like everything is falling to met. I'm sick of it. I'm tired of being the one that has to take care of everything and everyone. Simple tasks like making a phone call or getting ready on time seem too much for the people in my life. I'm just so tired.

A total of 16 pounds lost so far. Definitely not bad at all, but I seem to be fluctuating with my weight a lot. I think I'll go back on induction foods and stick with that until I'm much closer to goal.

On another note, my mom needs spinal surgery sometime in the next few weeks. I'm more than willing to pick up the slack for her once she gets it, in regards to housework and the like. I'm trying not to think about it much because it just scares me to death.

My mom is getting me a car to make it easier for me to take care of things when she's recuperating and I'm thrilled and scared all at once. I had a driving lesson today that went wonderfully. I had so much fun, it was such a freeing feeling and according to the instructor, I did really well. Thinking about driving, I get nervous, but once I'm actually doing it, it's exhilarating. I can't wait. I have my last session on Sunday, from 9 am to 1 pm. And on Monday, we're going used car shopping for me. I feel like a child waiting for Christmas though. I feel insensitive being so excited about something that has only come about because my mom isn't well. I am incredibly grateful for everything my mom has done and even with as excited as I am for the car, I'm even more hopeful that she'll recover and be okay.